5 years ago I lost my brother who was 22 years younger than me and got a divorce within 6 months from one another. I went into a severe depression. I worked and went home. I thought I was just getting old. I lived on a cocktail of Adderall and Vicodins just to get through the day. The vicodis would suppress the back pain. The Adderall gave me the energy to show up. Still, every little move, requiring a huge amount of self talk. At work, I would push through, but at home i did the absolute minimal necessary. Eventually, Covid came. I thought 2 weeks off work and stopping the drugs would reset me. It did not. That is when I realized I had depression. My approach to fight depression is not recommended, but I started reading about psychedelic mushrooms helping rewire the brain. I was 50 years old. I had taken mushrooms once before as a teenager. I took a small dose to see how I would react. The next day I went hard. The best day I felt a little better. I started sauna and worked my way up to 4 days a week, 20 minute sessions. Then I started light cardio being careful not to over do it. I met someone. The combination of all slowly got me out of deep depression. I still have days when I don’t feel great, but they are nothing compared to what l had. I hate to sound like one of those guys but a reasonably clean diet, exercise, sauna and a good relationship where you can share with someone how you fee will help IMMENSELY.