Well all that “fun” ain’t shit when you’ve got team of people around you screaming at you to do the correct logical thing but then you decide to “do you” and cause that failure.
90% of startups fail. Why? Because people take unnecessary and uncalculated risk, they’re arrogant, and they don’t listen to the very people they hired for their expertise.
Dude wtf you’re fine lol. You have a family, financial security, TONS of experience and a lot of knowledge of pitfalls and successes. If anything you’re in an amazing position relatively speaking.